I Am Enough.

October 31, 2016 - By Aaqila Ward

Numbers 13. I heard a sermon from this chapter when I was in college and it has seriously stuck with me since that time. Spies went into the land of Canaan as the Lord instructed, assessed the enemy and came back with the conclusion that they were not strong enough to go up against the people. The Lord already told Moses in verse two that He was going to give them the land; however, they still felt defeated…inadequate. “And we became like grasshoppers in our own sight, and so we were in their sight.” (Verse 33)

The pastor’s point that unbelief contaminates our faith posed the question to the Israelites and ultimately to the congregation, Who told you that?

In a similar way, I have found myself like the Israelites. Failure. Rejection. School. Men. Jobs. Life. Because of different events that have happened throughout my almost 26 years of life, I made an assessment in my own sight…I am not enough and sadly, I believed that I would never be.

I am not enough for him.

I cannot stand against my circumstance.

I’m lacking spiritually in that area so God can’t ever use me.

And the list goes on…lies.

I could hear the voice of God saying, “Aaqila, daughter, who told you that?”

As a believer, my faith was definitely contaminated by the fact that I believed this lie instead of the truth that God highlights in His Word. I allowed these lies to affect my decisions. They molded my behavior. They changed aspects of my personality. They clouded my judgement. I was a slave. So, I had to make a conscious decision to combat these lies with the Word. Two verses that I heard a thousand times growing up became very real to me:

For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139: 13-14

Who I am can only be defined by my Creator. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. He knew me intimately in my mother’s womb. Sure, there are times when this insecurity creeps up. But I’ve got a sword (the Word) to fight against it. And here’s one thing that makes Him amazing, my sin makes me inadequate BUT because I have accepted Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior, I am made complete and therefore, enough! My identity is founded on Christ. And this foundation is forever.

I am enough, period.

Who told me that? The One True God!